I haven't talk or share about my loneliness for a long time. It's because i start to feel ashamed or mad at myself for my own emotions. Because I feel like I'm not normal? I think I am born as someone who love to talks, sharing story, my feelings, my emotions. I love to...
6 month after you passed away, I'm back to your house. I stop by to pray and back to nilai. Today, I'm back again and sleep here for 1 nights. Honestly, the house smell like you. It's creep me out but at the same time my tears start to fall. All the memories...
This year raya feel different? I think it start to change after my grandma passed away. I feel like family bonding are falling apart? Raya feel empty. No more long conversation, kids laughing and feeling of bitterness because of unfair treatment. During aid-fitr, someone asked me to make an effort to increase liveliness...
As we are aware, due to covid-19, all universities are temporary close. However, after one month of break (movement restricted order), university decided to use online platform such as google meet and google classroom. Honestly, at first it was hard. Adapting with a new thing is not easy. It's weird to implement this...
dear self can u hear me? shouting, screaming towards you every time we went insane. i'm sorry. dear self, can you please stop being complicated, can you throw away all the emotions inside you? can you heal my pain can you stop worrying about future? can you stop hating me? can you stop...
Its already end of January.. January couldn't be worse. Its full of emotions. Full of ups and down. I am doing fine, thankfully. There is a time where the sadness come and go. Sudden cry and feeling under weather was normal. Feeling grateful when my hearts is full was normal. Laughing happily when...
4/1/2020 —She passed away So sad i wasn’t able to see you for the last time. I know few days ago was my last time i kiss your cheeks and forehead. But i had hoped That i will see you again on Saturday. I will visit you after exam. I came to visit...
