4/1/2020 —She passed away

So sad i wasn’t able to see you for the last time. I know few days ago was my last time i kiss your cheeks and forehead.

But i had hoped

That i will see you again on Saturday. I will visit you after exam.

I came to visit you but you not there anymore. Im too late. Just few hours late.

Its surreal.

Kids laugh fills our sorrow. I feel like i came home for raya.

I feel like you still here. With us. When I enter the house. Your bed still there.

I laugh and smile a lot that day. Because i feel like you still here.

But deep down i know you not here anymore.

Can you see my shaking shoulder? Holding tears denying reality. Remembers all the memories with you.

I feel empty when i arrived at home.

My heart hurts so much. Longing for you..